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life in three words
Sep. 5th, 2003 03:36 pmI. Can't. Win.
The week hasn't been too bad overall...just kind of nondescript. Overall. Highlights were last Sunday's D&D game and the ACM meeting the other night. But I've getting nowhere enough sleep, and I've been feeling even more lonely than usual. More on the first in a sec.
This morning, on my way out of chemistry, this girl came up to me and said "I like your shirt and your sunglasses". We got to talking (for the record, she was pretty cute), and ended up going to breakfast, it still being early in the morning. We exchanged AIM names, and went our various ways to class.
I figured that she must have some kind of interest in me, because...well, why come up to me at random like that otherwise? I know for a fact that my shirt and sunglasses aren't anywhere near cool enough to draw attention in and of themselves.
So the day proceeds, I go to class, I fall asleep in the Union and miss Analysis (damn, I still feel bad about that), and John and I head to dinner. We headed back to his room, fucked around with his TV card until he got it working, and then just hang out.
Mystery girl came on AIM somewhere in the process of beating the BT848 drivers for OSX into shape, but was away by the time I got back to the computer. I left a message, and in the process of doing so, got her website from her profile.
...her website which has an entire section on how much she loves her boyfriend, who is not only in Troy, but is a student at RPI.
What the fuck. Why was she yanking my chain like that? I'm sure that that is going to draw a lot of flack, but it's honestly how I feel right now. I'm goddamned lonely, when something comes out of the blue like this, I latch onto it as a hope, and then it never existed in the first place.
I just can't win.
Also, I think that I'm getting far more bitter and cynical than is healthy. And lonely, but that's par for the course of being me.
*sigh*
The week hasn't been too bad overall...just kind of nondescript. Overall. Highlights were last Sunday's D&D game and the ACM meeting the other night. But I've getting nowhere enough sleep, and I've been feeling even more lonely than usual. More on the first in a sec.
This morning, on my way out of chemistry, this girl came up to me and said "I like your shirt and your sunglasses". We got to talking (for the record, she was pretty cute), and ended up going to breakfast, it still being early in the morning. We exchanged AIM names, and went our various ways to class.
I figured that she must have some kind of interest in me, because...well, why come up to me at random like that otherwise? I know for a fact that my shirt and sunglasses aren't anywhere near cool enough to draw attention in and of themselves.
So the day proceeds, I go to class, I fall asleep in the Union and miss Analysis (damn, I still feel bad about that), and John and I head to dinner. We headed back to his room, fucked around with his TV card until he got it working, and then just hang out.
Mystery girl came on AIM somewhere in the process of beating the BT848 drivers for OSX into shape, but was away by the time I got back to the computer. I left a message, and in the process of doing so, got her website from her profile.
...her website which has an entire section on how much she loves her boyfriend, who is not only in Troy, but is a student at RPI.
What the fuck. Why was she yanking my chain like that? I'm sure that that is going to draw a lot of flack, but it's honestly how I feel right now. I'm goddamned lonely, when something comes out of the blue like this, I latch onto it as a hope, and then it never existed in the first place.
I just can't win.
Also, I think that I'm getting far more bitter and cynical than is healthy. And lonely, but that's par for the course of being me.
*sigh*
